Since the last entry, I've spent time mulling over the "jockish vibe that I seem to be extruding from every pore lately. I don't know exactly why I'm acting differently now than I do the rest of the year. I think it's just easiest to blame it on the sleep deprivation.

On a realated note, I made the state team... I don't know whether to feel happy or pissed. I don't know which would be appropriate. For as anti-school spirit as I usually am, I seem to be taking swimming more seriously than I ever thought that I would.

On an unrelated topic, I still hate my job. I think that some of the people I work with are starting to get to me.

I'm going to leave off with some personal notes to people.

Bree- See note in prior entry

Claire- You should update

Me- you suck

Poo- You should be more happy, or at least act like you are like I do.

[edited portion] I just had to add stuff in, cuz I thought of it like five minutes after I wrote the rest.

I seem to be having one of my looking back periods again. And I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I could have made friends with some specific people, and how much cooler life would be now. But that is that past, and all I have is my memory and the future.

Fuck it, I'm gonna go get high.

later everyone. (anyone who wants to partake of a bowl this weekend, feel free to call, I'm feeling generous, and I'm loath to smoke alone.)